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| adios oklahoma, you have served me well. | | |
| i've decided that i need more friends. since stephen has been in louisville, i have done a good job of going to school, going to the gym and then staying in my apartment for the rest of the time. i think it is now time for things to change. stephen has friends in louisville, and it is ridiculous for me to expect him to spend all of his free time with me. i need to have friends and i need to do things. even if it is just someone to watch tv with so i dont feel so lonely when stephen goes out with his friends. i'm finally listening to my boyfriend and taking his advice. so if you're interested, let me know. i'm not going to hack up your body and put it in my fridge - there's no room. i just wouldnt mind someone to go work out with or tv companion or someone to talk to while i'm crocheting. | | |
| instead of apologizing for all of the things i've done in the past that i now disagree with, i choose to say that i will be more conscious of my actions and the words that come out of my mouth. i will actually stop and try to think about what i'm saying and why i am actually saying them. do i really mean what i'm saying, or am i speaking out of anger because i don't know what else to do? i will try to keep that question in mind. i see things that i did not see before and all the things that i was making myself not see and understand. i am living the consequences of my actions and choices, so i must make the best of them. i will try to stop saying "what if" to myself and wonder what a different life would be like or how different choices would have made things different. i have goals for myself and i know what i need to do to make them a reality. the sound of my boy's voice telling me, "you are bulletproof," will run through my head as many times a day as needed until i no longer need to be reminded. i will find the medium between being unreasonable and being complacent. i can be flexible. i will embrace life again and realize things can be good until they are great. | | |
| today i attempted to find out if any of the local walmart stores carried something i found online that i want to purchase, but do not want to pay s&h for..
i called two walmarts in edmond and two walmarts in OKC.
out of the 4 walmarts... only one answered. this is the conversation:
me: hi. i'd like to know if you have something in your store that i saw online. i have the walmart number.
associate: what? pop quiz? honey, i dont know what you're talking about.
yeah.. that was the conversation. in all of the other walmarts, i was transferred to the housewares section after someone answered the phone and i was on hold for at least 7-10 minutes (yeah.. that's a long time to be on hold, but i really wanted to find out if they had it)before i hung up.. or I was hung up on. of all those stores, only one had christmas music for me to listen to while i was on hold. the others just had dead air. i still have no idea if any of the stores have what I want. maybe i'll call tomorrow and a different crew will be working.
ps - the only reason i'm dealing with walmart is because it is 10$ more expensive at target and the model they have is a lesser model. i havent been able to find it anywhere else. on ebay and amazon it was around 15-20$ more expensive plus outrageous shipping because it is heavy.
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| emer'gen-c (1000mg vitamin c fizzing drink mix) you are my new best friend. my headache and fever should be wary of you. | | |
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